Happy Birthday ME

It's my lola's birthday today. We call her ME and she is our "langit". We threw a simple surprise party for her outside our house.

I was able to edit this pic with only one hand and one eye. hehe. malinaw na left eye ko eh, the right eye can already see malabo nga lang.

I'm back!

23

i'm already 23! celebrated my bday last may13, though i was still sick i had a party. it was showered with a lot of blessings kasi bumabagyo. hehe.

the pastor from mang's church came over that afternoon & prayed for me. then that night, i was able to move my left foot. not totally but i was able to raise it. that was my bday gift! thank you Lord!

Updates

its been a long time. it was 2005.

what the hell happened?

october25, i was admitted again. headache again. i can't remember how painful it was anymore. basta masakit talaga!!! few days later i got a vp shunt operation because i devoped hydrocephalus. the water has been drained from my head. if you'll see me you now, you can still feel the tube and the shunt from my head going to the stomach. parang bukol na may tube. malamang. i was underKCAT again! i can't remember the details basta i got really sick. until my left extremities weakened, i can't move. i remember i had a flu that won't go away. basta i was really weak and sick. until i can't eat anymore. i find it hard to swallow my food, so i had a tube from my nose going to my stomach. i was fed with liquefied foods.

i was supposed to have a surgery because there's water in my in my lungs and it has to be drained. i was already prepared for the surgery inside the operating room when the doctor said "ok na" and i was brought back to my room. the medicine has already taken action. it's like a miracle happened. nasa loob ng o.r. tapos baglang ok na.

during my hospital stay, my right eye had scar because it got hit by the wood in my hand to support the dextrose. nasugatan ko ang sarili ko!

december22. i got out of the hospital few days before christmas.

it was my worst christmas and new year because i was really sick, i wasn't able to celebrate it.

few days after new year i had a hearing aid because my hearing is continuously deteriorating. i almost can't hear anymore but less than a month of using it, i became totally deaf.

i had physical therapy so i can walk, but nothing happened.

i can't hear anymore. we were warned  by dr. lopez before that i may lost my hearing someday. and that "someday" already came.

then i had another surgery because the tube from my nose was transferred to my stomach because its really been hard for me.

holy week was different this time. not only that i was sick, i felt like i was insane. i keep repeating what i can lip read, i can't sleep, i was counting the days, i was waiting for the week to end and i don't know why.

i'm currently having acupuncture to get stronger. im gonna blog about it next time.

right now, i'm still sick but i feel better.

before, i can't stand to sit for a long time, mabigat kagad ulo ko.
before, i even find it hard to move my right. now nakakagalaw na talaga.
before, i find it hard to chew and swallow. ang takaw ko na ngayon.
before. i can't stand to get stay longer than less than 20minutes infront of the computer -pagod kagad.
before, i can't totally hear. now i can hear high pitch noise. i'll blog about it next time.
there is a lot of progress as the day goes by. don't worry i'll blog about everything else next time.

Friendster

this was posted on my friendster account, this was written I think around March or April:


About Me:
MY 5 SENSES:
TOUCH- my right face is numb, my left foot and arm is also numb
SMELL-  my right nose is bleeding and my left has a tube on it
SIGHT- my left eye has a blurry vision as well as my right eye which has scar on the cornea
TASTE- i can't eat!
HEARING- i'm deaf right now..

Dizzy

i'm dizzy that's why i feel lazy.. hayyy!

Suki

i was in the hospital (lourdes hospital) again this morning around 4am.. no, i wasn't admitted again, thankfully.. but i was needed to be given oxygen.. i really can't breathe! t'was due to my bloated hard tummy.. while i was sleeping, i was struggling to breathe.. at first, i didn't wanna go to the hospital coz i was sleepy and thought my breathing will normalize soon.. but it didn't.. it even got worse.. as in super hirap! so i finally decided to go.. as always, i find it hard to walk coz i still got poor balance.. so my dad was holding me from the right and tito jim on the left.. it's so hard to walk.. madilim pa!

i stayed in the emergency room for more than 2hours.. we went home around 6:30am.. may araw na! and i'm starving already.. haha! and thankfully, my breathing was normal na.. hay grabeh! suki talaga! i'm tired of eating na.. pero i love eating! labo! basta. i just hope later, my doctor would decrease the dosage of the steroids i'm taking na.. my head's not hurting na naman eh.. not like before.. it only hurts when im starving.. so, food is the solution! pagkain pa rin?! haha!

Moon Face

finally, after 4months, i got to go to church.. grabe! the last time i went to church was before my surgery pa @ st.jude.. i often get this sunday sickness kasi.. most of the sundays i plan to go to church and attend mass, either i feel dizzy, got a headache or not feeling well at all.. and at last, this morning, i got to go to church na.. kaya lang.. i didn't understand a single word the priest and the commentators said.. as in. i'm so deaf! i'm really having a hard time listening to everything.. plus my right ear can't hear anything most of the time, just vibrations.. kaya mostly, i'm alone upstairs in bed, in silent mode.. parang baliw.. nagmumuni-muni.. haha! ganon din naman eh, i won't be able to hear everything people are talking about.. kaya hindi nalang ako nakikinig.. ;P

i super got no balance pa.. i always fall on the right side.. i'm scared na nga minsan to go downstairs coz i feel like falling on the stairs.. even when i'm just walking, i still fall.. super hawak dapat! hay!

super taba ko na! as in.. imagine, i eat rice meals 6 times a day.. i'm always hungry.. i got a high dosage of steroids and i'm taking it 2x a day.. my shorts doesn't fit me anymore.. my blouse are hanging on my tummy already.. i got a big tummy and a round face.. it's not healthy anymore coz i keep on eating but i don't have any activities or exercise.. ends up, i feel pain in my bones and i easily get tired.. mostly gasping for air to breathe.. i also feel my skin stretching.. exaj! taba! haha.

but still, i got a list of foods i'm craving for.. haha! i wanna eat, though i feel tired of it.. labo ba? basta.. here are some of the foods im craving for:

Phobia

my head ached this morning.. and i was really scared!

Scream

ganon pala yon?!

there are things you're unconscious of doing.. as in you have no idea of a single thing you've done..

i was really in pain last friday.. my head hurts really, really, really bad! as in my whole head.. nakakabaliw! as in! actually, my head was hurting for weeks already but the worse scenario was last friday! i vomitted whatever food i would eat.. i really got no balance.. my eyes and nose hurts.. plus the side of my head.. the back.. and there's like a space between my skull and brain.. super sakit talaga! i was screaming.. crying.. and even poking my head.. and i feel so deaf.. as in i can't remember hearing people's voices.. even my own voice..

Fat Girl Slim

my face is already round.. moon face. t'was caused by the steroids i'm taking right now.. my tummy's huge too.. and i got a double chin.. but still, payat pa rin.. hehe.

i still got a lot of poknats.. parang prayle na nga eh.. haha. my hair's still falling once in a while.. there are times that i'm scared to comb my hair so i would often just let it dry without combing..