Deafness Chikahan

silence..
scary isn't it? not being able to hear whatever.. but it isn't that bad after all..

i've been deaf since january.. but i fell like it even before pa.. when my hearing was already deteriorating.. actually, left ko nalang nakakarinig noon coz my right ear is not responding (according to the hearing test) na.. i even had a hearing aid on my left ear, ang sarap pala makarinig! hehe. but suddenly, i became totally deaf.. i used to say "pag di ko narinig, eh di wag!" so whatever i hear, yun na yon.. that was nung may naririnig pa kong konti.. eh now, wala na talaga.. so, what? hehe.

i already accepted the fact that i can't be able to hear anymore.. there came a time when i was really crying coz i really really really wanna hear.. i was thinking that it could only be a dream, when i wake up, i'll be able to hear again.. but i didn't! i was still deaf..

Chenilyn Bumblebee

chenilyn bumblebee!

i missed saying that..
so, isa pa..

chenilyn bumblebee! hehe.

busy as a bumbleebee? not really..

i sometimes envy those people who are doing a lot of stuffs even though they keep on complaining about the loads of things they needed to be done..

Questions about NF2.. hopefully answered.

been surfing the net.. eh i saw this one.. just incase you might wanna know..

What is neurofibromatosis type 2?
Neurofibromatosis type 2 is a disorder in which noncancerous tumors called vestibular schwannomas or acoustic neuromas develop along nerves in the inner ear. Tumors can also occur on nerves in other areas of the brain or spinal cord.
Signs and symptoms usually appear during adolescence or in a person's early twenties. The most common early symptoms are hearing loss, ringing in the ears (tinnitus), and problems with balance, which are caused by tumors growing on nerves that lead from the ear to the brain. If tumors develop in other parts of the brain or spinal cord, signs and symptoms vary according to the tumor's location. They can include seizures, changes in vision or sensation, numbness or weakness in the arms or legs, and fluid buildup in the brain. Some people with neurofibromatosis type 2 also develop clouding of the lens in the eye (cataracts) at an early age.

Red Alert

my super dry & scarred red eye.. bow.

How am I?

i was suppose to have my therapy today but it was raining so hard, kaya di na natuloy. btw, i have 3 kinds of therapy na pala. physical therapy for walking & so i can move my left arm. occupational therapy so i could smile & move my face. my therapist would also teach my right to do what the left arm & hand does since im left handed and i can't use my left. and finally, acupuncture to make me stronger. i'm getting stronger naman. kaya lng, dati it's for free, ngayon may bayad na. hehe. it's worth it naman eh. sabi nga ng therapist ko, im motivated daw, i'm too willing to get better. talaga noh! ang tagal na kasi eh, i wanna be ok na talaga. gusto ko na mag-lakwatsa! hehe.

btw, here are some questions & answers i always encounter. katamad na kasi, paulit-ulit eh. hehe. tamad ko noh?

I CAN

i can't hear..
i can't walk..
i can't move my arms..
i can't wiggle my fingers..
i can't swallow well..
i can't write..
i can't stand alone..
i can't smile..
i can't spit..
i can't see well..
i can't use my left hand..

i can't do ALOT of things but that doesn't stop me from doing the things I CAN..

life must go on..

Wala Lang

there's something i wanna blog about kaya lang tinatamad na ko and im starving pa. nako im really huge na talaga. u have no idea. i could give you a hint.. my waist measures 34.5inches! ha!har!

Acupuncture

its really painless! mabigat lang pag tinutusok but after that, you won't be feeling it's there pala.

i'm having acupuncture sessions at orthopedic m-w-f, dati it was everyday kaya its too exhausting to go there in q.c. kaya thrice a week nalang.

i used to have my therapy sessions at pgh kaya lang nothing happened. there were improvements naman kahit pano. thankfully, God lead us to dra. garcia thru lola nene (dra. altre). ayun, im having acupuncture sessions with her and i'm feeling stronger already. yey! when im really stronger already, they'll teach me how to walk na. lakwatsa na naman! hehe.

so far, i can already move my left leg na, hirap lang talaga maglakad but i'll work on that.

Jig

my friends had a fund raising for me @ jig in dbtc last january 2006. thaks to adie for the lay-out of the poster.

Dead People

i saw dead people..

i remember seeing my dead lolo (Papa GALS in red) when i had my open-close brain surgery last january 2005. then while i was confined last october-november 2005, i saw another dead lolo (Lolo Pete in white). that doesn't stop there, while i was at home, in my bed, i saw the image of Blessed Laura Vicuña. sosyal! i even saw an upcoming saint. hehe. "Suffer silent, smile always" daw. ;)