Private Blog

i saw this post in my other blog.. a private one.. haha. siguro u're wondering bakit walang lovelife d2 noh? kasi andon.. hahaha!

neway, i was reading my former kadramahan when isaw this posted last january 18, 2005.. before my open-close brain surgery.. wala lang.. i just wanna point that i got the best present last Christmas of 2004.. STRENGTH! ayun..

here it it..

faith

it's been a while..

i'm fond of reading news & current events online since i always feel blank whenever i watch the news on tv.. chismosang bingi eh.. hehe. so may pakielam pa naman ako.. ;P

while i was reading.. take note: entertainment section ha.. hehe. kasi i click on everything eh.. be it business.. lifestyle.. international.. national.. lifestyle.. etc. even news from tabloids.. haha. ayun nga even entertainment.. d 'to pahuhuli noh! hahaha! so yun nga.. i came across about the kris-james-hope issue.. like i care noh! mag-sapakan sila kung gusto nila.. what struck me was part of the letter of kris that was read in the buzz.. it came from a book she she is currently reading.. it goes like this: "Why does God make us wait for healing? Waiting is the most difficult part, how well we wait reveals whether we have faith in God." by joyce meyer from the book Beauty For Ashes, Receiving Emotional Healing..

eto lang masasabi ko.. it seems i have a lot of faith stored.. ayun.. tinatamad na kong mag-elaborate eh.. ;P

eto pa daw..

"If you want to get better, you cannot be bitter."

think..

i was supposed to blog about something last week.. kaya lang i was kinda busy.. kaya i haven't got the chance to blog about it.. naalala ko lang ngayon.. but i can't remember what it is about.. actually, i'm still busy pa din ngayon.. pero tinatamad pa ko.. kaya blog muna.. pero nakalimutan ko naman.. naalala ko lang na may ib-blog ako.. pero nakalimutan ko nga.. ewan! hehe.

maybe tomorrow.. baka maisip ko uli.. if i won't be sleeping during my acupuncture..

2006

not song long ago..

i feel really weak..
i'm always lying on my bed.. i don't sit much..
i can't stand waiting.. especially waiting for my turm on my check-up with my doctors..
i cannot roll on the bed.. someone has to help me when i need to change my position..
i can't rise up from bed on my own.. someone has to paise me up then place me in the chair beside my bed..
i easily get tired when i had my 1st physical therapy at pgh..
i could only stay for a few minutes in front of the pc.. (now, i stay away nalang ata when i'm gonna sleep na.. haha)

Season Greetings!

christmas..

everyone is writing about it.. their parties.. dinner.. wish lists.. gifts.. ako din noh! haha.

the season isn't over yet.. after gya's new year party, yun tapos na.. we're gonna party! yahu! videoke.. our special exchange gift.. foods.. and friends.. buti nlang ysiad will join us na.. last christmas kasi she wasn't with us.. she celebrated christmas infront of the pc.. working..

Yabang

i'm not sick.. i'm just taking a rest..

i'm not deaf.. i just don't wanna hear the noise of the world..

not that i can't walk.. i'm just too tired of using my feet..

not that i couldn't use my left arm and hand.. i just wanna use my right..

not that i can't smile.. i just don't wanna show how happy i am..

sorry.. but i don't feel sorry for myself.. hehe.

yabang eh noh? hehe.

i'm not in denial.. i'm just living my life.. haha!

2nd floor

i saved it already as a movie file.. but no one has to transfer it in a cd since the pc with the cd burner is upstairs.. upstairs! but i'm downstairs!!!

upstairs.. it's been more than a year since i set foot upstairs.. last time i saw how upstairs look like was october 25, 2005.. before i was brought to the hospital.. dati nga i was taong taas.. i'm always upstairs.. i seldom use this pc sa baba.. tapos when i kinda lost my balance.. i would go down nalang whenever i need to go to the cr to take a bath.. ginagamit ko lang yung cr sa taas just for peeing.. ay, i take a bath din pala don minsan.. tapos the food was always being brought to me.. para i won't go down na.. i was having a hard time kasi to use the stairs.. lagi ako nao-off balance.. i might fall.. kaya yon.. sa taas lang ako.. when i had my thesis din pala.. taong taas din ako.. i can't leave what i was doing eh.. kaya most of the time i'm infront of the pc.. upstairs.. basta talagang i'm always upstairs lang whenever i'm at home..

now, i don't even know how it looks like.. balita ko, magulo pa din siya.. hehe.

i wonder, when will i get the chance to see the view upstairs? drama mo! hehe.

Standing on my own

i have a surprise for u..

SURPRISE!

Walk.. Walk.. Walk..

i was inside the pt room.. while my left leg and arm has muscle stimulator on it.. i can't help but look around.. observing others.. while their having their therapy session too.. people with canes, walker and 'saklay' are everywhere.. not to forget the people on their 'wheels'.. of course, that includes me..

Halloween

i've been busy doing some designing stuff.. be it for friends or just my passion.. i've designed the cover for my cd.. my thank you video.. i'm gonna giving out copies to eveyone.. i put some cheverloo in it.. plus a bonus video.. hehe



i really like doing stuff for others.. with that i feel like i'm really not worthless.. even though i'm in this condition.. i still can do things i'm good at.. yesterday, i made a powerpoint presentation for kayzeleen batching.. then i made an invitation for cathy's daughter's birthday.. then i'll be doing janna's powerpoint presentation.. then i'm gonna make another AVP for someone's birthday.. and another ones birthday.. secret na yon.. hehe.



gotta go.. we're gonna have a party pa eh..